Over the past few years, I've learned something about myself. I really don't like when things are "in process." I'm not a fan of gray areas, or even balance. I prefer when things are black and white, all or nothing.
Unfortunately, I also learned that life rarely operates in this way.
Starting my own business is probably the biggest risk I've ever taken, and it's forcing me to reevaluate my take on process.
Being in process means that I don't have to have the best website or social media presence or client lineup on day 1. I don't have to have all of my organizational tools in order. What I need to do is take small steps every day, and just get working.
It killed me a little bit inside to even write the words above. As a perfectionist, it's difficult for me to accept anything less than stellar, especially from myself. One of the books you won't see in my office library is a book I was given in college, called Perfecting Ourselves to Death: The Pursuit of Excellence and the Perils of Perfectionism. I've read the book several times and have notes scribbled all over it. I didn't put it in my office library because I tried to limit it to just writing/editing books, but maybe this belongs with the others after all.
Because now that I'm suddenly not only my own boss, but also my own accountant, HR department, administrative assistant, marketing team and digital manager, I'm realizing that I have to embrace imperfection if I want to move forward.
I've already taken quite a few of the mandatory first steps to becoming a business, I can't help but spend a lot of time researching the best organizational tools to help me succeed, and I had a great time setting up my website. But as the head of HR, I have to remind myself that a balance of all these things — as well as time to exercise, recharge and rest — is essential if I want to achieve long-term success and avoid burnout.
So here's to balance. Here's to being OK with being a work in progress. Here's to being OK with having the rest of my office look like this, at least for now!